By Anonymous on Monday, March 3, 2003 - 06:46 pm: IANDS web site.
I had a near-death experience in 1985 at the age of 30. I drowned.

I saw the faces of great aunts and uncles that I had known in my youth. My spirit became a giant light. I saw, in my mind the high points of my life (there were only four of them!?!?) I began to leave my body before my physical body had even begun to die. And I argued with some being about my future missions in this life.

I was made to come back to help people. To give them hope and to awake in them an awareness of a vaster universe that they already live in. It was an astonishing and unexpected experience for me.

In this death experience, I realized the following things:

. Death is painless. Dying is like going to sleep; only you are still awake and alert.

. We are more alive after death than we are here, on this planet.

. Unnecessary acts of kindness count a lot. Beliefs are far less important than most people think.

. The quality of person that you are in this life directly reflects your quality of life in the next phase of your existence. I wasn't dead long enough to find out a lot about the next phase. Only that there is one.

What changed for me?

. I see people's actual spirit, not their auras, the actual them. If they died right then, I see whatever would be left "floating around."

. I feel people's emotions as though they were inside of me.

. I know that people's thoughts erupt from different parts in their brain and coalesce into central thoughts that they either focus on or express to others. Our minds work with pictures; the variation of internal images is immense. There are many little "yous" inside your brain that make up the big "you" that you talk to people with and think that you are.

. People's thoughts and emotions (especially) are broadcast all over the place. They emanate from their entire bodies.

What do I offer others?

. Encouragement. I can "create" you into a whole person.

. Empowerment. I enhance people's abilities to feel other's emotions, to have reliable intuition, to make things happen with the power of their being.

. Enthusiasm. When you become truly human, life is exciting.

What keeps me going?

What interests me is the quality of a person's inner being. A person's inner being is pre-speech, and is more basic than emotions. It is your source of personal power and is your real self-identity. This part is frustrating to explain and is so very important for people to understand. Sigh.

And how, with an adjustment to a person's inner being, however slight, profound changes happen through time to that person and to the ones around that person. That, above all, is the most amazing thing to me.

There is a god and the god is light and this god is personal. I am not religious but I am spiritual. I believe our spirits are eternal and that only our bodies die in this dimension. My level of proof has been satisfied many times over. This recognition gives me great peace of mind, not because I fear death. I came to grips with the fear of death while still in my Thirties. While before I was content to die into nothingness, I understand now that this is not what happens. We are eternal beings, multi-dimensional beings.

This belief coincidentally gives me great peace and joy because it happens to make sense of the suffering on this earth; we suffer in order to grow and become god-like ourselves. We suffer to learn what god is really all about. If we do not walk in all men's mocassins, we can never know what they feel.

I just call the light god or god the light. I am a part of god, a part of the light. I have no religious beliefs other than to treat others as I want to be treated and to work hard to love others as I want to be loved, completely and unconditionally. I would have never believed I would feel this way and I certainly never believed I would not entertain any doubts about this belief.

I am still of a scientific bent and see no contradiction in these two beliefs. While before I recognized the limitations of all the gods I read about, I now recognize the limitations of all the scientific truths I read about. The god-force I recognize and love is different from the god of any religion I have read about. One does not have to worship my god although in the act of living in the light one does worship it/him/her/us. My god's power is literally unlimited and can accomplish anything and everything one can think or imagine and it/he/she/I never behave(s) in any way but for the sake of love. It is truly all powerful and all merciful and love is the language of my god. Nothing else, just love and all that love entails.

Monday, May 27, 2002 - 06:51 pm:

I developed Diabetes in 1989. After a few years of learning how to control this disease, I considered myself average.

In 1995 my daughter married and the same year she gave birth to my first grandchild. A little boy which she named Anthony and I branded my, "Charlie Brown." The new light of my life! The first two years of his life were filled with disappointment and turmoil.

My Daughter and her Husband, got involved heavily into drugs, Heroin. They were in and out of our lives and my wife, Peggy, and I had to concentrate on survival for our children. I focused mainly on my Charlie Brown and Peggy searched for answers for our Daughter. At this point in my life, this little member of my family became one of the most important people in my life. I loved and still Love him beyond explanation.

Because of their choices to live as they were I was given the opportunity to teach this little boy how to walk, talk, whistle, everything he needed to learn, Grandpa was given the job of being his Grandpa, Brother and even Dad. When he was 2 years old, his mom and dad was arrested. His Mom only served a few months but his Dad was sentenced to 7 years and is still serving his sentence.

About 2 months after the sentencing, I became very ill. It was just a case of the flu, but every symptom that went with it, I had. I was concerned about not knowing exactly how much sugar was in my system, so I had my wife continually fix me juices and water with sugar added.

I did not know at the time I was doing the wrong thing that is not until Sunday morning at four o'clock. I awoke unable to breath. I woke my wife and she and my son put me in our van and began one of the most incredible journeys I have ever been on.

We were racing down the highway toward the Hospital and I remember drifting in and out. I kept telling my wife I was dying and she kept talking to me and I kept hanging on.

The last thing I remembered was as we pulled into the emergency room entrance, the nurses were there waiting for me, threw me in a wheel chair and started in the hospital dragging me backwards. That is when I finally couldn't fight it off any longer and I drifted off into a coma.

I will never forget this most amazing event. The first thing I noticed was I had no pain anywhere in my body. The best way to describe my journey is I felt like a rocket blasting off and the sound was that of a rocket. I was jetting towards the brightest light I had ever seen. The brightness was indescribable. As I was jetting I felt as though I was traveling hundreds of miles an hour yet on both sides of me I saw family members which had died earlier in my life, floating by me as in slow motion. They were all smiling at me.

The absence of pain and the presence of past family was not an issue with me. The issue was my Precious Grandson who was about to lose the only father figure he had left.

I began to shout to God. I didn't know Him but I knew if there was one, He was going to hear me. I shouted," Please God, don't take me away from my grandson, please, please. I kept shouting and begging. That is when I promised God if He would not take me I would search for Him and teach my Charlie Brown the way He would show me was right. This went on for a while and then suddenly my eyes popped open.

I looked up and my wife Peggy was standing in the room and the Doctor had just told her they lost me. She looked past the doctor at me, obviously alive, eyes open and staring at her, and asked the doctor what happened. I answered for him: "I know what happened," I said, "but he doesn't." My Doctor later told me that while I was in the coma, my glucose level was 1470. Normal is 80 - 120. He also said he had never known anyone to survive with a glucose level that high.

I still have Diabetes and I keep it under control. My Charlie Brown and I attend Sunday school regular and he is one of the best kids you could ever know. I have kept my promise and I have found the God I was searching for. We are best friends.

A friend and I went to a concert at the Baltimore civic center; it was called at that time. We had both smoked PCP, marijuana, and also ate enough LSD to kill an army of elephants. We were not trying to kill ourselves even though we had done so much.

Then all of a sudden, something in me told me to leave the concert even though it was only half over. I felt like something was compelling me to do what it wanted and I had no power to stop myself. My friend thought I was crazy but followed me anyway.

We walked north on Howard St. and I would not look to see if cars were coming, I just stepped into the street to cross and the light would change so we were safe. My friend really thought I had lost my mind, but he still followed me.

When we reached the top of Howard St. I could feel my heart humming like a humming bird, I stopped to sit on a wall grabbed my chest and that is when it happened. I was immediately bathed in a bright white light; I could hear my friend screaming that my body was glowing like a light bulb. The light was so bright that I hesitated to look, and then I felt something that I will never forget.

I felt the warmth of the purest love so strong it is impossible for me to describe. When I turned and looked into the light it did not hurt my eyes at all, and for once in my life I felt free of my body and all the earthly problems I thought I might have, I was floating, it was the most incredible experience.

Then a voice came from the light and asked me what I was doing to myself and that he loved me and did not want me to be hurt or be sad. The voice told me specifically that we are all its children and loves us all the same and just wants our happiness while we are here until it is time to come home.

Then images of my past were shown to me and other times in my life that I was saved from myself. I was also shown some of the future, a wife, children, and a life I had only dreamed of. The voice in the light asked me if I wanted to stay here on earth or come and be with him for all eternity, I said I wanted to stay here.

Then the voice in the light told me to find his people, when I asked how was I to find his people, the reply was that I would know. All the while this was happening I could still hear my friend screaming that I was glowing like a light bulb.

Then the voice asked me one more time did I want to stay here or did I want to be with him for all eternity and I said I wanted to stay here and the light was gone, and I was changed forever.

Since this happened from that night on my friend was so frightened that he never came around me again.

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